Runs on Espresso
Menu
  • Home
  • Blog
  • Runs on Espresso Media
  • Planning
  • Runners
  • Affiliate Links
  • About Runs on Espresso
Menu

The Struggles of Training

Posted on May 22, 2019July 13, 2019 by Jenna

As long as I can remember, I’ve struggled with anxiety and probably a tad OCD. Not enough to affect my daily life, as I still went to school and now work every day, but just enough that my brain never seems to shut off. It’s hard to explain to people that I can’t just stop thinking about something.

My mind will spin on a problem (or thought) for hours.

My 2018 ended roughly, and now I’ve got depression on top of my general anxiety and OCD. Sleeping is hard, which makes it worse. I often wake up after 7-8 hours of sleep, feeling like I got two. I’ve been tested, and there’s nothing wrong with me. Apparently. Lately, I’ve been waking up at least an hour before my alarm and doze in and out of sleep.

The lack of good sleep could drive anyone even crazier than they already feel.

Every day I get up, and I think I will work out today. Some days I feel strong and healthy; I can do my run plus plyo or strength training. Other days I struggle to get out the door. Some days my body (strikethrough body) brain tells me everything hurts, I should give up, I should cry, and I can’t breathe. I know it’s the depression talking, so I keep going and telling myself it’s all in my head.

Whenever I need a boost, I wear my wonder woman sunglasses.

Every week I vow to do better, but something happens and throw me off. But I get back up and dust myself off to try again. It really is all about momentum. Too many days off, and I struggle to start again.

Hopefully, someday I find the magical combo of what works or days will get longer. But that’s another blog.

How do you get through when the struggle bus pulls up to your house?

Category: Health + Fitness

Jenna Volden

Author

  • January 9, 2025 by Jenna Embrace Bold in 2025: My Ambitious Goals for the Year
  • December 26, 2024 by Jenna How to Set Up Your New Planner for 2025
  • December 21, 2024 by Jenna Coming Soon!
  • December 9, 2024 by Jenna 2025 Planner Stack: Tools for Organizing My Messy Mind
  • December 2, 2024 by Jenna 2024 Planners in Review

Categories

Find Runs on Espresso

Visit Us On InstagramVisit Us On YoutubeVisit Us On FacebookVisit Us On TwitterVisit Us On Pinterest
Terms of Use
Privacy Policy

Copyright Runs on Espresso/J Volden Creative LLC 2023

© 2025 Runs on Espresso | Powered by Minimalist Blog WordPress Theme