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Episode 1: Starting Messy: It’s Okay to Not Have It All Figured Out

Posted on January 7, 2025January 1, 2025 by Jenna

Show Notes:

In this episode, we’re embracing the beauty of starting messy and letting go of the pressure to have it all figured out. If you’re feeling the weight of perfectionism or trying to make everything “just right” before you begin, this episode is for you. We’ll talk about why it’s okay to start with small steps, even if things aren’t perfectly planned or executed. I’ll share how I’ve learned to let go of perfectionism, especially as someone with ADHD, and how you can use flexibility to build momentum and progress in the new year. It’s time to focus on consistency, not perfection. So grab your planner, a sticky note, or just a moment of peace, and let’s start this journey together, mess and all.

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Episode 33: Let’s Get BULKEH!

Posted on July 25, 2022July 23, 2022 by Jenna

Last episode I gave four reasons for runners to lift. But now what? It’s time to dig into strength training!

Four our warm-up, we’ve got nothing for admin corner. It’s been quiet around here since I’ve figured out how technology works, and to double-check sound at every step!

Onto our long run! As stated in the intro, we are digging into strength training today. I’m not a doctor. I’, not an expert… at anything. I’m just a runner who likes to read, research, and share what I’ve found. Please check with your doctor or do your own due diligence before starting a weight training program. 

Let’s start with some myths. First, you aren’t gonna get super bulky from weight training, unless that’s your goal. It requires a lot of heavy lifting, and diet plays a huge role in it. It can take years, especially for women, to get super bulky. If you plan to do a lot of steroids you may get that faster but I don’t recommend that route for MANY reasons.

You don’t need an arm day, leg day, whatever day. In fact, working multiple muscles two to three times a week is a better way to go. And no, you can’t tone or spot reduce. I know, I know. It sucks we can’t target those bat wings or that stubborn tummy fat. Trust me, if we could, I would be spot reducing the shit outta my stomach! 

There are many, many more myths but those are the ones I hear and see most often. What myths do you hear or read over and over?

So, you want to get started lifting. But do you need to join a gym to start tossing the iron around? Nope!  You can get in a great strength workout just using your own body weight! If you don’t have access to a gym or live in an apartment, body weight can be a great way to get in a workout and get stronger. 

If you want to add a little more to your body weight activities, you can add resistant bands to do some more lifts, such as curls, lat pull downs, and many more. You can also get a pull-up bar for your doorframe but be careful with those! After a while, they can pull away from the doorframe and cause you to fall. That’s what happened to me at least!

I had my pull-up bar for several years and one day I was doing some pull-ups and I could feel the bar pulling out of the metal frame holder. And down I went! Flat on my ass. Of course, I put my arms back to catch myself and most of my weight went into my right arm. Eventually, my shoulder froze up and I had to do physical therapy for a couple of months. 

I have not gotten a replacement and it’s been like two years.

You ready to start adding some weight to your collection? You can get a couple of dumbbells, a kettlebell and a medicine ball to add more resistance and moves. I started with an eight and 10-pound dumbbell, 15-pound kettlebell, and six-pound medicine ball. It was more than enough to get me started. The key is to get something not too light and not too heavy to do a variety of lifts with. Only you will know what weights that will be.

If you have access to a gym, you’ll have pretty much everything you need. And then some. Every gym I’ve belonged to has had a slew of dumbbells, bars, and plates, plus machines. I’ve used a little bit of everything at gyms and it all has its place. Personally, I prefer dumbbells, bars, and plates to machines. But you do you boo.

So now you’ve decided what you want to do, bodyweights, free weights – like dumbbells and bars/plates, or machines. But how will you know what to do?

There are soooooo many options out there these days! You can hire a trainer or coach. They can be at a gym or virtual! Be sure to check their credentials or get recommendations from friends for a reputable one. A trainer or coach should be able to listen to what you want and or need and create a program tailored for you! If you can afford it, it’s a great way to go. 

If you don’t want to go the trainer route, you can find about a million apps, books, or other programs. There are really endless options out there. Endless! You need to look around, try a few out, and get what you enjoy. There are many free apps or apps that have a free and paid versions. Some have a trial period. Why not try them all?

If you are looking for something specific and you like the idea of bodyweight training you can get you are your own gym app. Nike and Adidas Training apps both have bodyweight workouts as well. For heavier lifting, there are apps like Stronglifts that focus on the big five lifts (squats, deadlifts, bench press, shoulder press, and pull-ups). 

Oh, and there are also things like Les Mills or Peloton. They have a variety of exercises from cardio to strength. 

Many trainers also have programs you can purchase and are usually a PDF download with all the info you need. Personally, I have bought Jessie Fitness programs and enjoy them but they can be a bit challenging and intense. And some are not compatible with running as much as I do.

It all really depends on what you want and need in a program. You need to know how long you want your workouts to be if you can modify them to meet your needs, and how many days you want to lift.

Some people lift five to six days a week, some two to three. But as a runner, how often do you really need to lift each week? From every source I’ve read, two to three weeks is all a runner needs. So a six-day program may be a bit much unless you are going to take two weeks to do one week. I have done everything from two to three days to six days and everything in between. For me, the sweet spot seems to be three days. Two days doesn’t seem to really give me a chance to be consistent and see changes and more than three becomes harder to fit in with all the running. 

I have also done a program that is six days a week and for each week I did a week and a half to two weeks. I still saw results. The program took longer to finish than the standard 12 weeks but it still got results!

Ok, but should you run and lift on the same day or no? Should you run then lift or lift then run?

I usually run in the morning before work and lift after dinner. I do not lift the night before a hard workout, like a track session, or a long run. And if I have to lift before those workouts, I will do an upper body-focused session to keep the legs fresh.

And sometimes, if I’m working from home, I’ll do a strength session at lunch. Since I have an hour it is just enough time to fit in a workout! Gotta get it in when you can, right? 

If you can, two separate sessions are best. Run in the morning, lift later in the day. I know that isn’t always possible. 

So what if you only have a certain amount of time in the morning and need to do both your run and strength training? Which should you do first? I would start with whatever your priority is. If you are training for a race, run then lift. If you want to focus on your strength, do that first. 

What I do is when my coach sends me my running for the week, I put those on my calendar first. Then I look at my planner and determine which two or three days are best for strength training. Running is almost always my priority so that is why it gets top billing. If you are following a training plan for a race, put those runs on your calendar then determine your strength sessions. Easy, peasy.

Lastly, should you train differently in the off-season?

As runners, we usually have race cycles. We train for our A race, run our ass off (or maybe that should be we run our legs off), recover, rinse and repeat. And sometimes we take a little more time off after the recovery period. Or where we live determines which seasons we really want to run outside in. For me, that’s summer when it only gets to 90 degrees overnight. For others, that might be winter when it’s too cold or icy to safely run outside.

Strength training may be perfect for those seasons you don’t want to be outside running! Or maybe when you need a little break from running. Because we’ve all been there. 

This year I’ve decided to take a step back from running and focus on weight/fat loss which means more strength training. I’m still running but I’m not doing any double-digit long runs. I’m also planning to try to PR in the 5k in winter so my focus is different this summer than last when I was training for a marathon.

What you decide to do will be dependent on your future goals. If you want to keep your long-distance mileage up, maybe prioritizing strength training isn’t right for you. If you want to focus on fat or weight loss like me, maybe knock your mileage down a bit and increase strength training. If you can, work with a coach to help get all your shit worked out. If not, do a little internet sleuthing and maybe check with your doctor before making any big changes to your training.

We have covered quite a bit about strength training. Hopefully, you found it helpful. If not, let me know what else you wanna hear because there is so much out there! I had to start and end somewhere. 

I mentioned a couple of apps/programs during the podcast and I’ll leave you with a few books I’ve used over the years. I’ll put links in the show notes for as many as I can. Please note, any Amazon links will be Amazon Associate links and I may receive a commission if you purchase through them.

A few of these aren’t specifically about strength training but are great resources for runners who want to know their body and get better at running. Those are Anatomy for Runners, Roar (female focused), and Running Rewired. Strength books I’ve enjoyed are Quick Strength for Runners, Strong Curves (female-focused), and New Rules of Lifting for Women. There is also one for men but of course, I am not a man so I haven’t checked that one out yet. I’m sure it’s fine.

Book links (amazon associate links):

Anatomy of Running https://amzn.to/3zsXoCF

Running Rewired https://amzn.to/3vbGWUN

Roar https://amzn.to/3PCAm28

Quick Strength for Runners https://amzn.to/3PQCByl

Strong Curves https://amzn.to/3PxC5pk

New Rules of Lifting for Women https://amzn.to/3PB2L8z

I was thinking about doing podcasts covering each of these books, like a summary and review, if that is of interest. 

And that’s our run! Time for our cool-down.

I finished The Silent Patient. It was a three-star for me, a decent read but no desire to re-read or rave about it. It did take me almost to the end to guess the twist. It probably would have been a four-star if the ending hadn’t felt the need to have a character talk down to the audience to explain. I don’t want to go into too much detail in case it’s a spoiler! 

We recently went to King’s Canyon and Sequoia National Parks. We camped in King’s Canyon and saw a bear snag a loaf of bread on our first night. We also had the rangers come through at least twice to warn us about the bears. We also saw deer, marmots, squirrels, chipmunks, robins, and blue jays. Oh, and quail. Lots and lots of wildlife and HUGE trees! We also hiked 4.5 miles to the top of a waterfall. Overall it was a great trip and nice to get away. Almost zero cell service! 12 out of 10, would recommend.

Well, that’s it. Have you read or watched anything good lately? Or maybe had a fun summer vacation? Drop me an email and let me know!

Until next time, may your running, weight training, and coffee be strong!

And of course… the usual end of podcast spiel. Maybe someday I’ll sneak in something fun after the credits to see who listens to the end. 

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Episode 31: Thirsty… Monday?

Posted on June 20, 2022June 18, 2022 by Jenna
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Oh boy, I hope you’re thirsty this week! We are covering all things… HYDRATION!

Warm-Up

I didn’t get any feedback about last episode so either my singing scared y’all off or you decided it was worth pushing through to get to the rest of the podcast. I must say, I really liked the four quick tips style. I will probably keep that instead of only boring you with my training on those short pods. I will probably sprinkle my training in some episodes as it relates to the topic at hand.

Lastly, our schedule will be a little off for July due to the Monday holiday. The podcast will be dark for two weeks, June 27th and July 4th, and be back for our track workout on July 11th. Then it should be back to every other week, at least for July and August. Looking ahead it seems Labor day will also be a day off for me. 

Lets head into the long run. We are going to chat hydration. It’s summer, at least here in the northern hemisphere, which means warmer temps. For some warmer is like high of 80. For the rest of us? We get those lovely 115 degree days with overnight lows in the 90s.

To say hydration is important is an understatement!

I am gonna add that even in colder, winter temps, hydration is still important. It might look different than it does in warmer months.

And remember, I’m not an expert and I’m not a doctor. It’s important to do your own research and check with your doctor. I’ve figured out over the years what works for me. But what works for you may be different. It’s kinds trial and error for this kind of stuff. So much depends on your own body. How much do you sweat? Are you a salty sweater? Where do you live? Is it dry or humid? Is it hot? Are you running early or late? I can’t give you an exact strategy because it reall does… JUST DEPEND. 

Hydrating starts before you even step out the door for your run. Everything you eat or drink can have an affect on your hydration levels. And staying hydrated is essential to keep your body running, even if you aren’t running! 

How do you know if you are hydrated or dehydrated? 

The most obvious one is are you thirsty? Do you have a dry mouth or throat? Also, check your pee! Burnt orange color and strong smelling pee, like when you first wake up, is a sign you are dehydrated. Drink a lot of water.  Amber means you are mildly dehydrated, drink some more water!. Light beer color? You are hydrated! But don’t stop drinking! And lemonade is optimal hydration. You good. If it’s clear? STOP!! You are getting overhydrated. 

What to do before your run?

I know there is all this talk of ideal times and amounts of water to drink before your run. Most articles I’ve read say to have like 16 ounces two hours before. That’s cute. I don’t know about you but I’m not getting up at 2:30 am to drink water two hours before my run. If that’s what you want to do, more power to you! 

For me, I get up, drink maybe four ounces of water, have a snack, get dressed, and sip anouth four-ish ounces. This works well for me BUT I make sure I drink water throughout the day and while running, even when I only go out for three miles, I take water. This works for me. It may or may not work for you. 

Sometimes, if I have time, I will do a pre-run hydration drink. There’s powders you can buy or you can be real awesome and make your own. Don’t ask me for a recipe because I just buy shit. I don’t have time to be making homemade stuff! The idea of these powders is to prepare yout body for a workout, much like a weightlifter might do creatine or pre-workout. 

What to do during you run?

For shorter runs, you probably will only need water. Even in summer. Think anything an hour or less. But you know, you do you boo. When you start getting into those long runs be sure to add in something with electrolytes. There is probably about a billion brands out there. You got the grocery store standards like gatorade and powerade. You can get more speciality ones like honeystinger, nuun, and scratch just to name a few. Some of these brands will also have options with more calories and carbs for those long run days. 

After years of running and hiking, I’ve got my plan on hydrating during runs. This may or may not work for you. I have found the easiest way for me to keep up my hydration during runs is to sip every mile. It’s easy to remember because my watch buzes. I started doing this after reading you should drink every 15-20 minutes. Pfffft, like I would remember that. I am not good at eating every 60 minutes either. I need everything in miles, not minutes. And my fastest mile was like 9:50. Sooooo, usually around average 12 minute miles. So yah, a little less than the recommended time but it works!

On longer runs, I alternate sips of water and some kind of drink mix. My hydration plan also works with my fueling plan on long runs. I sip water at mile one and then every even mile after that. I sip drink mix every odd mile, starting with mile three. I also eat every four miles and usually water is recommended with fuel so there’s that. Now, trail running? I fule every three miles (or try to) so I switch to water for all odd and drink mix for even. 

This might be too much water for you. Or not enough. Yup, it’s a pain in the ass but you’ll figure it out. I believe in you!

What to do after your run?

Some people do the weigh themselves before and after a run to know how much fluid they have lost. And then drink whatever amount to rehydrate. It’s too much math for me and I never remember to do one of the weigh ins when I act like I’m going to do this. The most basic info I can find that isn’ involving calculating sweat rates is to drink 20 ounces for every pound lost. 

I usually drink some water immediately when I return home, maybe four to eight ounces then continue to sip throughout the day. If I’m feeling a little more thirsty, my throat is a little more dry, maybe I have a slight headache, especially after a warm weather run, I will do a rapid hydration mix or even just an extra electrolyte drink. It usually helps me feel hydrated again. 

While dehydration isn’t fun in the summer, we also need to be aware of the opposite issue that can cause numerous problems, overhydrating or hyponatremia. Which basically means you’ve had too much water and not enough sodium (hence why those electrolyte drinks are important when you run long!) Who knew drinking too much water could be a bad thing? I had never heard of this until a few years ago. Ok, it was probably longer than a few but it wasn’t something I ever remember learning about being an active person my entire life. We were only ever told to drink water and electrolytes when it was hot.

How do you know if you are overhydrating? Remember that scale trick? Did you gain weight? You may be drinking too much. According to Mayo clinic some symptoms of hyponatremia are: Nausea and vomiting, Headache, Confusion, Loss of energy, drowsiness and fatigue, Restlessness and irritability, Muscle weakness, spasms or cramps, Seizures, 

and Coma. Treatment is usually cutting back on drinking. If symptoms are bad or not going away you may need to seek medical help for things such as an electrolyte solution or other medications. 

As runners, we will probably need to worry more about being dehydrated than overhydrated. Something to keep in mind as you try to balance between drinking enough and drinking too much!

I mentioned drink mixes. Currently I use a mix of honey stinger, skratch, and nuun. I was previously a nuun ambassador and am currently a honey stinger ambassador so that is why I use those. I decided to try skratch once after getting a coupon to try from a strava challenge.

I am thinking of doing a taste test slash review of these and other brands as a video. But I want to know… what brands and flavors do you want to see me test?? Most, if not all, hydration mixes are gluten free. At least that I have come across so far. I can’t guarantee they all are but if they are gluten free I will try them so you don’t have to. If you have one you want me to try send an email to jenna at runs on espresso dot com.

Whew! Now that we’ve hydrated through our long run we can have a nice little cooldown. 

I think fiction books have gotten me back into reading. I’ve finished two books since Run Rose Run and am flying through a third. I’ll probably actually be done with it by the time this is live. 

First I read Tiny Pretty Things, which is actually a YA novel. And now a netflix show. I haven’t watched the show yet but I will probably at some point. Tiny Pretty Things focuses on 16 year olds at a prestigious NYC dance academy that feeds dancers to their Company. These children live and go to school at the dance academy. They spend 24/7 at this place. And it’s competitive. Which leads to lots of drama, harassment, and bullying. It starts and ends with drama! (To not give away too much in case you want to read or watch). Overall I gave it three stars which for me is a good book but nothing I would re-read and might recommend depending on the person. 

Since Tiny Pretty Things is the first in a duology, I checked the library for book two Shiny Broken Pieces. They only had it as an audio book, which I haven’t really enjoyed in the past. But I didn’t want to buy the book so I thought I’d give it a try. This audio book was actually much easier for me to follow. I don’t know if it was the ADHD meds or the fact that I had read the first book so knew the style and characters already or both. I’ll have to try some other audio books to test the theories. This book was much of the same and the ending was predictable but satisfying.

As of this writing I am over half way through The Book Woman’s Daughter. It’s a fairly new release and the second book in a duology. The first book is The Book Woman of Troublesome Creek. I would definitely recommend the first one and most likely, like 99% sure, I’d recommend book two. It’s a fiction book but the story is based on real life. Way back in the day in Apalachian there was a program where woman would ride and deliver library books and other materials to people that couldn’t, for many reason, go to school or get to town. The main character in the first book has a genetic condition that makes her skin blue. There really is (was?) a family that had the condition. It’s very fascinating. I had to research all the real stuff while reading. 

For TV I’ve been watching the new Obi-Wan series on Disney+ and really want to start the new Hulu docuseries Keeper of the Ashes. Oh, and the ending of Barry! Anyone else watching this? I believe HBO has already said there will be a season four. I can’t wait to see where they go from here.

Ok, that is everything I have for you today. What are your favorite sports drinks? What brands/flavors should I try? Lemme know!

Until next time, may your runs and coffee be strong!

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Episode 30: Summer Running

Posted on June 18, 2022June 18, 2022 by Jenna
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Episode 30 is all about summer running had me a blast. Summer running happened so fast. I wore a watch timer for me Met a shoe cute as can be. Summer days driftin’ away To uh, oh those summer runs. Well oh well oh,

Uh, ok we are done with that. Sorry, every time I say summer running I automatically think of Summer Loving from Grease. It’s a problem.

Let’s start our warm-up. HUGE admin corner mea culpa. So on March 23rd, I loaded up my podcast app and started listening. And where my podcast should have been… SILENCE. What the heck? I know I recorded it and uploaded it and all that. Well, I didn’t listen to the file I downloaded and then uploaded. Because I was going to listen on Monday like everyone else! And then I kept forgetting to check on it. Until March 28th. I re-downloaded it (like 4 times) until it finally exported everything. I swear sometimes technology hates me. Anyway, if you didn’t listen to it I suggest refreshing your feed and giving it a shot. I am really proud of that one and was so disappointed when I realized it didn’t work. Anyway, I will be sure to triple-check the sound from now on. 

We are going to do four laps around the track today for our workout. Today we are talking summer running, in case you forgot since the intro. 

Lap 1: Go early. Or late. Here in Phoenix, the morning temps can still be in the 90s at 4 or 5 am but at least the sun isn’t relentlessly beating down on you. In the last few years I’ve switched to early mornings but I used to go at like 8 pm/sunset. 

Lap 2: Hydrate. I’m not gonna go into too much detail because hint hint this month’s long run podcast will be all about hydration. 

Lap 3: Wear sunscreen. I can always tell the days I forget to put on sunscreen. My skin gets super warm, super fast. Plus I don’t think we want to get skin cancer. 

Lap 4: Ignore your pace. You will probably be a minute or so slower per mile than usual. Running slower, more by feel, in the summer will help your speed come fall. Run by feel, not by the pace you think you should be going.

And we are done with our track workout! Great job everyone! Of course, there are many more tips for running in the summer heat. But the point of the podcast is just some quick tips or tricks. What is your favorite summer running tip? Send me an email and let me know and maybe I’ll feature them on a future pod!

Let’s do our cool down. I really love the new Showtime show I Love That For You. It stars Vanessa Bayer and Molly Shannon. It’s a comedy about a TV shopping network, like HSN. Definitely would recommend.

Is anyone watching the last season of Better Call Saul? OMG, the mid-season finale was… Interesting. What do you think will happen to Kim since we know she’s not on Breaking Bad. My first theory is that she is dead but I read a theory that since she is from Nebraska that she goes back there and that is why Saul, as Gene, doesn’t want to leave  Cinnabon. It mentioned that on the scene when Kim’s mom picks her up from shoplifting they lingered on the license plate showing Nebraska and when Kim turns around to execute their plan she is wearing the earrings her mom shoplifted. And as we know, almost nothing in Breaking Bad or Better Call Saul is accidental. It’s all done for a reason.

And that is it for now. Until next time may your running and coffee be strong! 

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Episode 29: Charlatan Charlie

Posted on June 18, 2022June 18, 2022 by Jenna
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Hello runner friends! Welcome to episode 29 of Runs on Espresso, Charlatan Charlie. I dunno, I just like alliteration. 

Warmup:
I don’t have anything for the admin corner. So we can skip our warmup today. Although I would not recommend skipping your warm-up for actual workouts. 

Workout:
I have been meaning to cover today’s topic for a while. It’s been on my mind for about six months. And after my deep dive into ADHD followed by my diagnosis I think I know why. It’s something many people, well at least women, with ADHD struggle with. And I think many runners may also feel this way. I lucked out and get the one-two punch of being ADHD and a runner!

So what exactly is this topic?

Imposter syndrome. 

But what exactly is imposter syndrome and what the heck does it have to do with running?! Per Psychology Today, you think you are undeserving of achievements, feel like a fraud, and struggle with self-efficacy, perfectionism, and neuroticism. Well now, doesn’t that describe a lot of us? Or just me? 

Let’s break these down to how I feel as a runner and in the greater running community. Obviously, this doesn’t apply to everyone and I am not a psychologist nor did I stay at a Holiday Inn last night, so this is a total layperson’s viewpoint. Feel free to email me your thoughts! I’d love to hear other’s thoughts on this topic,

The first point… to think you are undeserving of achievements. I’ll start with my personal example for this one. Over a year ago I completed the Yeti Challenge, which is considered an ultra. Ever since I have struggled with calling myself an ultrarunner. Yes, I did the work. I trained. And I completed the Yeti. 31 miles over a 24 hour period. But I feel like since I did the Yeti Challenge and not a race all at once it should not count.

I’ve talked to other ultrarunners and they ask, did you run 31 miles? Yes. Did you do it all in the 24 hours? Yes. What did you do between segments? Rest, ate, slept, and prepped for the next segment. They say that is exactly what happens during an ultra. Although I’d argue not during a 50k, maybe a 50 miler. But see? There’s my imposter syndrome rearing it’s ugly head again!

I’m pretty sure I am the only Yeti Challenge finisher who struggles with calling themselves an ultrarunner. I still struggle with calling myself an ultrarunner which is part of the reason I want to finish a real ultra eventually to quell this issue.

I see a lot of people who will say they finished a 5k (or whatever distance) but I didn’t run all of it. They don’t feel it counts as a running race if they stop or take a walk break. Like the achievement doesn’t mean as much if they walk some. This is definitely something I see with beginners. And sometimes they get discouraged and give up. When I first started I struggled with this a bit because I would do the run/walk method as needed. During my very first 5k I had to take a walk break because it was 12 degrees out and my asthma was causing some struggles. I still finished the race. I did my best. For that day. And that is really all we can do.

So if you struggle with thinking of yourself as a runner because you walked during a race? I hear you. I see you. But you know what? You’re a runner. You deserve all the HELL YAHS for finishing that race! You decided to take on a challenge and YOU DID IT! You rock! You are a runner, even if you take walk breaks. Hell, I still take walk breaks when I need them!

Ok, now for point two. You feel like a fraud. Maybe you think you aren’t a real runner because you don’t look like a pro or a mile takes you 15 minutes or more. But guess what? If you run, even if it’s only down the block, you are a runner.

I’ve been running regularly since 2011-ish and I have had those fraud moments. Most recently started back in October and what inspired this podcast. In October I did my first marathon. Virtually. Oh boy, that in and of itself should be a HUGE deal but I did the virtual Boston. And they sent me that beautiful yellow addidas running shirt. 

For the longest time that shirt sat in my closet. Taunting me. Teasing me. I didn’t want to wear it. Because what would others think? Would they think I flew to Boston, ran heartbreak hill, and crossed the line on Boylston Street? I mean, I ran A marathon but not THE marathon. I received the unicorn medal but it still felt weird to wear the shirt. 

Because I ran alone. And no where close to the official route. Hell, my route was flat as fuck. Because where I live is completely flat. Although it was also hotter than Boston. Our low was their high. 

But still I didn’t want random strangers driving by and thinking I ran in  Boston. 

Eventually I realized it didn’t matter and I started wearing the shirt, even though I felt weird every time I pulled it on. For a while, I felt like a fraud when I wore it. Eventually, those feelings subsided and I didn’t think about it as much.

Have you ever felt like a fraud during your running career? I know many people don’t like virtual races and don’t consider them as real races. I do but I can see where others come from. Some runners won’t use their PR or PB if it isn’t a quote real race unquote. I figure, if you ran it in training, for fun, or a virtual race you still ran it. So you can still count it.

Ok, moving on to point number three. Struggling with self efficacy, perfectionism, and neiroticism. First off, we need to talk about what self efficacy means. The best way of thinking about it in running is, do you think you can do the things necessary to reach your gaols? Can you get up every morning and go out the door? Can you do the warm ups, the speedwork, the diet, the cross training, whatever to be successful in your running.

What does this have to do with perfectionism? Well, if you’re like me it can be an all or nothing mindset. Well, I already fucked this up, might as well go off the rails! I used to do this. If I missed a workout? I’d give up and try again the next week, month whatever. If I ate a few cookies, I’d eat all the cookies because what the heck! I’ve already messed up! I have seen many, many people do this when it comes to diet and fitness. We need to remember it is not all or nothing.If we mess up one day, one meal, we can get back on track the same day. We don’t have to throw in the towel. It’s taken me a long time to realize and adjust. It won’t happen over night but it does help to acknowledge it and try to make those little adjustments. 

And now, the last part of that neuroticism. That self doubt starts to creep in, the anxiety ramps up, and those negative thoughts start to pop in. You missed that run so you won’t be able to finish the race. You had to stop early. You must suck. Again, I’ve been there. I’ve slowly learned to acknowledge those thoughts and then let them go. They don’t help. You don’t suck. A missed run or two isn’t going to implode your training. Heck, I’ve barely trained for half marathons before and still was able to finish. I changed my strategy to run what you can, take walk breaks if needed, and most importantly HAVE FUN! I wouldn’t recommend this for distances longer than a half but if you run fairly regularly most of the time and have done whatever distance enough it won’t matter if you aren’t 100% trained.

I think sometimes we may even sef sabotage ourselves because we don’t think we deserve whatever running achievement we are going for. I have done this. And I probably did it with my first attempt at a 50k. Remember how I said I ran a virtual marathon, alone this past October? Well, that was probably my billionath attempt at a marathon. I registered officially for an inperson marathon at least three times, dropping distances each time. I have started marathon training more times than I can count outside those three registrations. Twice I had real health issues that I had to deal with but the rest? I let my training fall apart. Most of it due to being tired. A lot relating to anxiety. 

My first attempt at a 50k? I got glutened early on. Then I had some weird back pain. Was some of that in my head? Could I have done the 50k and still finished? Probably but I chose to step down in distance because ANXIETY. 

Most recently? I’ve been trying to lose weight/fat. Each week I weigh in. I do measurements at least once a month. The weight keeps going up and down. I got off track with weight lifting then I had some crushing fatigue, like I barely could make it through the work day let alone get in any workouts. The fatigue has subsided but I’m struggling to get back to my routine. I keep thinking, why does it matter if my weight isn’t going down? Even though I know how weight loss isn’t linear. I know results will vary yet I sabotage myself and stop doing the things I know work. 

So how do we get over feeling like we aren’t real runners? How do we shake this imposter syndrome?

I’ve mentioned a few things throughout. The first thing to do is acknowledge your expertise and or accomplishments. Did you finish the race? Yes? Then that’s it. No buts. You did it. You have earned it. No matter what your brain tries to tell you. Second, don’t compare yourself to others. I know, I know. This is hard too. I find myself struggling with this from time to time.

You don’t know what someone else is doing 24/7. You see their highlight reels online. If you find yourself comparing? The best thing to do is remove yourself for the time being. Does strava make you want to run more? To run harder because you saw someone else ran further/faster/whatever? That’s a you problem, not a strava problem. Log out. Delete the app. Apps should be about cheering each other and lifting others up.

I don’t go on Strava or Instagram to compare myself. I don’t know where they are in their journey. Hell, sometimes I don’t even know where i am on my own journey! You don’t know if they were able to run that far because they’ve been increasing their distance for years or because they have had a death in the family and running is the only way they can cope for the moment. You may not know if they work from home and can use the extra time in the morning to fit in more miles than when they used to have to commute. There are so many factors we just don’t know.

For me, I have found the more I say to myself or others I’m an ultrarunner or the more I wear the yellow shirt the more i think I deserve it. It takes time. You aren’t going to stop thinking you’re a fraud over night. Same with comparing yourself to others. It won’t stop overnight. It probably won’t ever completely stop. I still will catch myself thinking how great it would be if I had as much time as someone else to work out. Or how they don’t have celiac disease/asthma/whatever so that’s why they can go to the gym and do more than I can. Those thoughts still try to pop in my head but I push them aside. I much prefer to support my fellow runners and cheer them on instead of comparing myself. 

You are going to stumble. You will probably fail. But guess what? So does everyone else. You need to remember that no matter what, you’ve put in the work. You rock and you will conquer whatever it is you are tyring to do. Even if, like me, it takes you 107 tries to finish a marathon. Be relentless. Keep going, even when it’s hard. 

I’ve been wanting to journal more, maybe I will start writing about my self-sabotage and imposter syndrome feelings. It might help me keep on track better! I can pretend I am my own sports psychologist. Maybe there are some good prompts out there to help with this. I will have to look into and get back to you in a later episode. Do you journal about your fitness like this? Does it help? I’d love to hear if you do and what prompts you might use.

Let me know, do you struggle with imposter syndrome? What is your best tip to overcome those feelings?

Cool Down:
My library hold from March finally became available! I finished Run, Rose, Run in about a week. It was long but a fast read, as many James Patterson books are. There were a lot of mysteries with each characters. I felt the pace of the book overall was good. The first third felt about right, the middle slowed a bit, and the ending wrapped up fairly quickly. Now I have to go see if Amazon Music has the matching Dolly Parton album. Or maybe not because as I was reading the lyrics in the book I kinda put them to my own rhythm and music. 

We aren’t even gonna talk about the Suns. On to WNBA! Let’s go Mercury! And I guess baseball. 

Anyone have summer travel plans? We are planning to hed up to Sequioa and Kings Canyon National Park this summer. We were supposed to go pre-covid but I broke my leg in Yosemite on day one of that vacation. We attempted during covid but they kept opening then closing campsites. So this is the year!

And I kinda want to do Vegas, again. I want to hang out in a cabana by a cool pool. 

Spiel:
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Episode 28: It’s a track workout!

Posted on June 18, 2022June 18, 2022 by Jenna
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I don’t have the transcript for this one. I don’t know what happened to it.

Episode 27 – Take Care of You

Posted on April 25, 2022April 24, 2022 by Jenna
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EPISODE: 27

INTRO

Do you remember the first time someone talked about your weight or body? Or maybe when you realized you didn’t look like the people on TV or in magazines? I’m guessing it probably happened at a fairly young age. I remember being around middle school age when I started to hear schoolyard teasing and noticing who got to be on tv and magazine covers. It was also around the same time I started to compare myself to others, especially in dance class. 

At least in the US, it feels like we start to obsess about body image at a young age. We are bombarded daily with social and cultural expectations on how we should look, especially as females. Our media is constantly showing thin celebs with headlines like, “She dropped all the baby weight in just weeks after birth!” or other things that can be difficult for the average person who has a full-time office job, household responsibilities, children, and whatever else we all deal with. It starts to create unreal expectations. 

If you haven’t figured it out yet dear listeners, today’s topic is body image. Take this as your trigger warning and stop listening if you aren’t sure you can handle it. 

MAIN CONTENT

But what exactly is body image? Per Wikipedia it is a person’s thoughts, feelings, and perception of the aesthetics or sexual attractiveness of their own body. So basically, how you feel about your body which can change from day to day or even by the hour. How we feel about our bodies is complex.

Our thoughts about our bodies can come from many different influences. Did you grow up in a house with a mom who was always on a diet or criticizing her own weight? Maybe she eventually started to discuss your weight as well. Little comments like do you really need to eat that or that style doesn’t look good on your because of your stomach will stick in your brain. 

Maybe you had a dad who wanted you to put on muscle and “be a man”. Sorry, as a woman I don’t really know the male experience when it comes to body image and can only make assumptions based on what I have seen and heard. It seems a lot of men’s body image stems from being strong or being athletic. If I’m wrong or you had a different experience, please reach out and let me know. I can always do a follow-up to address this area more.

Like I mentioned in the intro, a lot of our early experiences will influence how we feel about our bodies later. Were you teased for being the tallest or getting boobs first in school? Those experiences will stay with you. I was always one of the heavier girls in dance class but when looking back I wasn’t fat but I felt large when standing next to others in only tights and a leotard. 

Other big influences include media, societal and cultural expectations, and more recently, social media. I lump these all together because they are branches of the same tree. We are constantly seeing images of younger, thinner women or men with a six-pack. When we don’t look like those images it can affect our own thoughts on our bodies. There are hashtags like thinspo and sayings like nothing tastes as good as skinny feels that seem to encourage eating disorders. 

I felt dirty googling to research some of these sayings. Many of which I would not even want to repeat. I used the previous one because it’s one I’ve heard many times and assume many others have. Please do not go down the thinspo google rabbit hole. It’s very sad to see the sayings and photos and my heart aches for people that feel they need to follow them. 

Back to societal expectations. If you’ve belonged to a gym or been around any sort of fitness community I’m sure you’re aware of the new year newbies. Personally, I always thought it was awesome to see a whole new group of people working out at the gym come the new year. But I would always hear people bitching about it and looking forward to March when the gym was “back to normal”. It always feels so mean to be excited for people to give up on the gym or whatever new workout they are trying.

Many people don’t want to join a gym because they feel they aren’t fit enough or don’t have the body for the gym. They feel like outsiders. Gyms can be intimidating to someone who has never been to one. If you’ve never used weight machines or dumbbells you don’t know what to do and that can be hard to walk into that space. I was lucky enough to have weight training in high school so I’ve always felt comfortable there but I know many who did not have that option. 

I know, most gyms have trainers that can help but every time I’ve joined a gym they walk me around and point out equipment and that’s about it. Maybe if you ask questions they will show you more but if you are already intimidated it can be hard. And then many times for more help you have to pay for a trainer on top of the monthly membership. 

Other people have said they quit a gym and won’t join another because people have made them uncomfortable. People will stare. They will judge. And sometimes they will make asshole comments. 

I don’t know how we can change that but I wish I did. I wish it was try that people at the gym are only there to work out and mind their own business. But we know that’s not true.

As a runner, I hear a lot of “I can’t run. I don’t have a runner’s body”. Many people believe to be a runner you have to be long and lean. But really, I’ve seen all body types at races and on the trail. I’ve been passed by people that are bigger than me, smaller than me, younger than me, and older than me. You don’t have to be thin to be fast. 

Or the other reason people don’t want to run, especially outside in their neighborhood, is they don’t want anyone to see them. They think that their butt hangs out of the short shorts or their stomach jiggles too much. I mean, I have had those thoughts while running. And again, don’t tell me people don’t notice or care. They do. I’ve been honked and yelled at while running. I’ve heard stories of women being called fat or much worse by random strangers driving by. So yah, stop that. Do not honk (even if you think it’s encouraging, it more than likely scares the shit out of the runner), and do not yell at people running. Unless you are also running/walking and you say something like you go girl or you are doing awesome in this heat! Both things that women have said to me while out. 

As I said above, I am not immune to body image struggles. In fact, I have been struggling a lot lately with accepting my body. I have had to go out and buy a size up in pants within the last few months and that is after resisting for quite a while. I didn’t want to admit I needed a larger size. But I got to the point that it was physically painful to wear some of my pants. And others I couldn’t even get on. I had to admit this weight was not changing any time soon and go buy new pants.

And don’t get me started on how the fit of clothes can affect your body image. I’ve always had a more curvy figure and pants never fit. In order to get them over my hips, they are too big at the waist. In order to fit the waist, I can’t get them over my hips. Most clothes are made for a specific body type and it’s not most people. And a lot of the cheaper clothes are not well made so you could be a medium or a large in the same shirt, just depends on if you got the one on top or bottom of the cutting process. Or you’re an 8 at one store and a 12 at another because women’s sizing is very arbitrary. 

And like most people, I know what I need to do to lose weight or fat. I do a lot of those things but the weight doesn’t seem to budge. I know I need to do better and I know I am the only one that can change. I know I need to be more consistent. You know what else I know? Shaming someone, pointing out their weight or anything like that DOES NOT WORK. I can guarantee you that if someone is offering “friendly” advice, the person already knows it. The person already is trying to do something about it but there are many, many, many reasons why the person still hasn’t lost weight, some beyond their control.

 And you know what else I know? Just because someone looks overweight doesn’t mean they aren’t healthy so the “I just want you to be healthy” people need to STFU and sit down. You cannot look at someone and determine their health. 

It’s sad that some people can do everything “right” and still not live up to society’s image of healthy because they aren’t a size 2 or 4. 

I have been struggling for a while with eating too many sweets, chocolate, ice cream, whatever. Like I literally could not stop myself. I would try to not eat the thing, binge. I would try to eat some of the thing, binge. It didn’t matter. I was sabotaging myself. I knew it. I was trying to eat healthily. I was running. And I started weight lifting again but I STILL COULD NOT STOP. This is something I’ve struggled with at various times in my life. Sometimes it was easy to control, other times it wasn’t. 

Guess what? I got diagnosed with ADHD at age 41 and went on Adderall. Those cravings stopped. Now I can eat a serving of cookies and be done. Now I don’t always need an afternoon chocolate binge to get through the day. So yah, just because someone is trying to do the right thing and eat healthily and exercise it isn’t always in their control. 

Our body image is also influenced by our emotions and mood. You can do all the right things and be feeling great and then eat some cookies and feel like you gained 10 pounds on your waist. Or you wake up after an amazing week of exercise and healthy eating, step on the scale and you don’t lose any weight. Or worse, you gained! What happens next? You can spiral. You can give up because why should I keep doing all the right things when nothing changes? You forget that change takes time. We don’t always see results immediately. 

We can start to limit our activities or social meet-ups because we fear other’s judgment. We spent the past two years in a global pandemic not seeing many people. Maybe we put on some weight and are afraid to go to an event because you know someone will comment that you’ve gained weight. Should we care? No, but it’s hard not to especially when we’ve already beaten ourselves up about it. 

I’ve seen people who will avoid going to the doctor because they know they will be put on the scale and told whatever their problem is it’s because they are overweight. The fucking doctor. People should be able to go to the doctor without fear of being judged by their size because again, not everything is related to their weight. Losing weight isn’t a magic cure-all. 

So, how can we start to love our bodies?

We can start practicing body positivity. But what is body positivity? According to WebMD it means accepting and having compassion for your and others bodies. 

But how do you do that? We’ve been trained to be critical of anybody outside of society’s accepted norms. It is never easy to change our habits and mindsets and this is no different. It will take practice to become better at accepting bodies as they are.

First, focus on what your body can do. Appreciate that your legs can run, even if it’s a 14-minute mile. Love that you can lift those weights, even if it is a 10-pound dumbbell. We get to do these things. Find gratitude in your workouts. 

Second, negative thoughts are going to happen. When they do, notice them and recognize them for what they are – unhealthy or rigid standards set by society. And don’t beat yourself up for slipping up! Because it will happen. Acknowledge, reflect, and move on.

Diversify your media. Look for tv, magazines, and social media accounts that are not your typical cardio bunnies and dude bros. That mom over 40 that’s just trying to keep her stress down? Follow her. The dad that wants to lose weight so he can keep up with his kids? Follow him. Healthy bodies and minds come in all shapes and sizes. Seek them out. Realize that looks do not equal health.

And lastly, take care of you. This is probably the most important step. You can’t be healthy, mentally or physically, if you aren’t looking out for yourself. Be active. Whatever that means for you. The best is a mix of cardio and weight-bearing activities but that covers an entire spectrum of things! Enjoy dancing? Hit the floor! Nature walks? Yesssssssss. It doesn’t matter what you choose as long as you enjoy it and you actually do it. Eat healthy. Everything in moderation. 80/20 diet. I’m not gonna tell you to eat a fucking boring salad every night and forgo chocolate. Just find the balance. And go to fucking bed! I bet you need more than you are getting, most of us do. No more late-night Netflix binges. Take a nap on the weekend. However, you do it just get more rest!

None of us are immune to body image issues. We can all do better at being kinder to ourselves and others. I know I need to be much kinder to myself and I am working on it. Do I still look at myself in clothes and think ugh I need to lose weight? Yup. Do I recognize when I’m doing it and try to correct myself? Ummmm… sometimes. I’m gonna keep on working on not judging myself and instead push a little harder in my workouts. And making sure I’m eating well. I’m going to keep finding social media accounts that are diverse and inspire me to keep working on my own body image. 

What are you going to do to help improve your body image?

COFFEE CORNER

Omg, I forgot coffee corner last episode! Did you miss it or nah? Should I keep doing it? For this week I’ll go ahead and do it. But seriously, let me know if I should drop it.

I’m thinking about creating a true crime podcast called Only Joggers Find Bodies. At first, I would focus on cases that got me interested in true crime as a child and are from my home state of Wisconsin. I originally had these in blog format but I think I’d like to see (hear) them as a podcast.

What do you think? Would you listen? Are there too many true crime podcasts already? Or should I keep it under Runs on Espresso and add a second podcast each or most months? 

WRAP UP

Ok, that is all I have for this week…

If you enjoyed this podcast, be sure to give it a follow. New episodes will air monthly on the last Monday of the month. I plan to keep this schedule for a while since I have so many other things going on. In the meantime, you can find me on Youtube, Twitter, and TikTok at runs on espresso and Instagram at runs_on_espresso.

If you like this podcast, I’d appreciate a rate and review wherever you listen. And be sure to share it with anyone you think might enjoy it. 

If you have a show idea, something you’d like to hear more about, drop me an email at jenna@runsonespresso.com I look forward to hearing your ideas! 

Until next month, I hope your runs are as strong as your coffee!

Episode 26 – Let’s Chat

Posted on April 11, 2022April 10, 2022 by Jenna
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Hello everyone! I am finally back, after a one month break that apparently turned into four!First off, a little house cleaning. Part of the reason I took a little more time is I wanted to find a new host, which I did, but then I had to find a good recording/editing program since the host I picked did not offer that. And everything had to be free because I get no money from this. So finding everything took longer than expected. The podcast will be ad free for now because 1) the new host doesn’t have a paid ad program for my level and 2) I have no outside sponsors at this time. I’m not opposed to sponsors but I won’t do ads for brands I don’t use or love.

Going forward my goal for the podcast will be twice a month. One will be on a topic related to running and/or fitness and the other will be a look at my training and what’s going on with my journey (for lack of a better word). 

So to get back in the swing of things, today’s podcast is going to be a catchup on what I’ve been up to these past few months and my goal/plan for summer. 

Going allllllll the way back to December, I had the Hot Chocolate 5k. I had been running quite a bit and doing speed work. I thought I’d be able to get a decent time for me. I hadn’t done a road race, in person for years. The course was fairly flat until around mile 2. Then we had to tackle an overpass, up and over then under then up and over on the other side. It was tough but I pushed myself to keep running. I ended up finishing in 35:33. I had wanted closer to 30 but what can you do?

I finished December with 92 miles with my goal being a 50k in March. January was pretty much building on December and a trail race to help build for my ultra in March. Granted it was only 20k but it was still more than I had been doing on the trails. It took me a little over 3 hours and involved quite a bit of walking. I went out too hard. I missed a middle fueling time. I walked more than I needed.

Really it was an omen of things to come.

I finished January with 100 miles and moved into February. February is where shit started to fall apart.  A few days or so into the month, I was out on a long run and my hip started to bother me. It was an odd discomfort in an odd spot. It was more on the top of my hip, toward my back. Fast forward like 30 seconds if you don’t want female TMI. So, I had my period but didn’t make the connection right away. I was having horrible back pain from PMDD and I think the back pain, sitting for work, running, and stress all combined into my hip. I backed off running and focused on gentle yoga for the back and hips, hopped on the bike, and took the dog for a walk.

It lasted longer than I had hoped and I was really struggling with if I could, or should, do the 50k. It was definitely adding to my stress level. About the middle of the month, I called it. I talked with my coach and decided that this was not the time for an ultra attempt. I had a bad training cycle throughout and the hip was the cherry on top. We decided I would drop down to the 30k instead. 


It was the best decision for me. I instantly felt a weight lift. 

So, once my help felt better I started getting in some shorter runs and at this point it was basically taper time anyway. I ended the month with 60 miles going into my 30k.

The 30k was the first weekend in March. I was dreading it in the week leading up to it. I no longer wanted to even run. But I paid for it so I figured I should at least attempt it. The morning of the race I had a mini breakdown. I was overrun with emotions. I was beyond tired. I was stressed about work. Nothing had been going right that morning. 

But I figured I was dressed, my pack was ready so I headed out. I was a bit late to start, maybe 10 minutes after the rest of the 30k but I was frazzled. Luckily I was able to start before the next distances so I had the trail to myself. I needed the time alone in the desert. I got a slow cruising pace because my goal was to finish. Not to finish fast. 

I did not encounter a single other runner in the race until around mile six. We were coming up on an out and back area. It was a spot the race pointed out on the map and said 30k runners must do this little out and back. The signage was a little confusing but I had studied the course, knew the park, and had the route in my watch. This older man stopped me to ask which way we were supposed to go and I tried to explain and he was like BUT THESE SIGNS! So, I showed him my watch and he finally was like oh, ok and started following me. I tried to keep my pace but he kept talking to me and I felt like an asshole if I didn’t slow and talk to him. 

There was an aid station at the turnaround and I tossed my trash and grabbed a small pickle slice. I didn’t take anything else because I had my own stuff and I felt that the aid station was for the ultrarunners, not me. Anyway, I booked outta there hoping to get ahead of the talkative guy. I was just not in the headspace to chat.

I knew what was coming next and I was dreading it. I’ve done this climb before. I’ve completed it at least twice and had to give up once. It turns out, I’m not a goat. I hate climbing. I hate gaining elevation. 

In preparation I even started a new daily asthma medication hoping it would help me in these situations. 

It did not.

I still struggled to breathe going up and took many rest breaks. The old man, two ladies, and I kept passing each other as we all would stop to catch our breath. 

At this point we were also encountering the longer distance runners passing us in both directions. Knowing I wasn’t going for time, I kept stopping and letting people pass especially on the narrower, single track spots. Somewhere in this climb I skipped my scheduled fueling. Again, this was gonna haunt me later.

At some point I lost signal and lost my podcasts so I had to listen to myself breathing. It was pretty awful. Next time I’ll remember to download a few to get me through these spots. Well, if there’s a next time.

Eventually I reached the second aid station. It was around mile 14 and I had finished my skratch so I took advantage and refilled with whatever drink they had. A quick glance at the food and I didn’t think there was anything I could actually eat. Everything was packaged and none of it was anything I recognized as gluten free so I stuck with my gels and chews.

I finally hit the downhill section that meant only a few more miles to go! I felt like I was flying down the trail. This was a trail I knew and loved. And all the hikers were cheering and moving aside without me even asking! And then I almost biffed it. I caught my toe on a rock but was able to stay upright by airplaning my arms. Brought me back down to earth a bit. 

The last stretch was about 3 miles and basically flat with only a few spots down and out of ravines. It should have been an easy cruise through. But it felt just as hard as that earlier climb. 

There was one last aid station about 2 miles from the finish. I skipped it thinking I didn’t need anything since I was so close. I really should have stopped and got some real calories. My body did not want anymore gels or chews. But nooooo, I thought I’d just keep going and run into the finish.

I swear they moved the finish. It seemed so much further than 2 miles. I alternated between run/walk but it was so hard to muster the energy to run. And all these ultrarunners would pass me, looking no worse for the wear, and cheer me on while I looked like death and was doing a fraction of their distances. 

And then of course was the cruelest part of ot all, right before the finish was a climb out of a ravine. And not a little on either. I wanted to just give up and be done. I didn’t. I sucked it up, gave myself a pep talk, and went for it.

And then, just like that, almost 6 hours later I was done. And just in time because the wind was really kicking up. Not like a slight breeze but some big gusts. I was tired. I was shaking. I was starving. I went over to the food table and was seeing what was available since you know celiac disease means I need to be careful. I saw watermelon and that was all I wanted.

One of the volunteers came over and asked if there was something she could help me with. I dunno, could have been my exhaustion but it felt like she didn’t really want to help me. I asked for some watermelon and she gave me one slice. Like I get others need food too but one slice? It’s not like I asked for one of everything. It just really turned me off. 

So I inhaled that one slice of watermelon and walked to my truck. I had to figure out what I could order and pick up. I ended up ordering cheese fries and a cobb salad. Oh and a cherry coke, not diet lol I ended up eating maybe a fourth of the fries and salad. I had leftovers for the next day. 

One thing I noticed was my right hip stared getting tight around mile 17 much like it did in the marathon at mile 20. I know I have tight hips naturally but now I need to consider if I should be doing these longer distances and if I do, how can I help my hip not tighten up? These are questions for another day.

After the 30k I took three weeks off and have been starting to build up my miles again. I do not have any more races on my calendar and no plans to add any. I have decided to take some time off from training for races and focus on fat and/or weight loss over the summer. Its hard to lose weight when you are training for marathons and ultras. Also I don’t want another summer of running double digits in 90°plus heat.

I talked with my coach and we are going to keep my long runs at 6-8 miles until I decide on a distance. She’s also adding a bike workout to my week and I’m going to do four days of weight training. 

So I weighed in, took measurements, and progress photos and have started trying to lose fat. And get bulkeh! 

One last thing I want to touch on. In March I was formally diagnosed with adhd and started on medication. It has already made a huge impact for me. I am less irritable. I’m more patient. My anxiety is pretty much gone. I actually feel like I’ve slept. I don’t need afternoon caffeine. I no longer have uncontrollable chocolate or sweet cravings. I can decide to have a serving of ice cream or cookies and not go back and eat the entire package. I almost wish I knew sooner.

I don’t know if it will help my running and workouts but I think it will. I no longer have crushing fatigue. I can come home from work, make dinner, and still have the energy to lift weights. I no longer have the arguments with myself to just get up and run or lift. It’s hard to explain to people how you want to do something but you. just. can’t. It’s not as easy as just doing it. But on medication? It is much easier!

That is where I’m at now. Next month I will update my fat loss progress and how training is going. These catch up podcasts probably won’t be as long as this one since I’m covering four months and three races.

What have you been up to these past few months? Have you had any good (or bad) race experiences? Whats your training looking like for summer? Or winter if you are in the southern hemisphere? 

You can always email me at jenna at runs on espresso dot com. Want to follow my day to day goings on? Head over to Instagram dot com slash runs underscore on underscore espresso. I’ve been posting my weight loss journey over on tik tik dot com slash at runs on espresso. 

And if you’re feeling generous, you can buy me a cup of coffee at ko dash fi dot com slash runs on espresso. Don’t feel you have to pay me at all. I just appreciate you listening and following. If you want to help out, share this podcast with a friend! That’s even more helpful to me than money.

Until next time, may your runs be as strong as your coffee.

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Episode 25 – Rocks, Pebbles, and Sand. Oh my!

Posted on November 29, 2021November 24, 2021 by Jenna

On today’s podcast, I talk about filling a jar with rocks, pebbles, and sand. What does that have to do with running? A lot actually. 

What is going on everyone! I cannot believe we are a couple of days away from the last month of the year. 2021 has flown by! I can’t we will soon be in 2022. I may take December off since Christmas falls on my usual recording day! Then we can start fresh in season 2 for January!

Today I want to talk about planning your year and coaching.

First up, we are reaching the end of 2021. Have you been thinking about everything you’ve accomplished this year? You should be because I bet you’ve done more than you think you have! We have a tendency to forget what we did WAY back in the first half of the year. So take a moment to reflect on all the awesomeness you’ve done this year. 

It was a lot huh?

Ok, now it’s time to start thinking about what’s next if you haven’t already. I like to pick an A race or main goal. For next year, that is my first ultra. Once that is completed, my goal will switch to maintaining my running and building strength.

But how do you get to your A race or goal?

You plan your year. Put that A race on your calendar. Is it a spring or fall race? Will you do other races to test your fitness along the way? Add those too. So now you have your big yearly plan. Then we gotta break it down into smaller pieces.

Have you heard the rocks in a jar analogy? I’m sure you have but just in case the overall idea is you put the rocks in the jar first, then the pebbles, then the sand to fill in all the gaps. That’s kind of how you should look at planning your year.

So your rocks are your A race and other supporting races. The pebbles? Those are your quarterly and/or monthly training plans. Lastly, your sand is the weekly/daily work you put in. 

After you’ve put the rocks on your calendar, look at the quarters. For me, my ultra is early march so quarter one, January to March is focused on workouts and food to support my ultra. April through June will be recovery, July to September base building, and finally, October to December will be getting ready for a marathon in 2023 (yes, I already have that penciled in). How will your quarters look for 2022? Take some time to think through your cycles for 2022.

Once you have your cycles, you can focus on each month. I like to sit down the last week of the month and plan out the next month. I do the same weekly. Every Sunday, I sit down and look at my schedule and my training and fill in strength training and other cross-training activities. 

See? You start with the big picture now and fill in the gaps.

One last thing before we take a short break. Leave room to be flexible. Life happens and we have to change plans, often at the last minute. Maybe you planned to have a rest day on Thursday but something came up Tuesday and you ended up not working out. That’s ok. Take a look at the rest of your week and move things around as needed. 

Being flexible and consistent is the key to achieving your goals and rocking that race!

Ok, let’s take a quick ad break.

And I’m back!

I mentioned before that I was looking for a coach and had hired one. November was my first full month of coaching and I feel like we got a lot accomplished! She started me back slowly, which was expected. It was a little weird to go from marathon training, to rest, to like 20-mile weeks. 

I know people that have done them and I know what they are but it still made me nervous! For me, and I’m sure many others, doing something new can be a bit scary because we don’t know exactly what to expect. Like, I hate going to a new to me restaurant because I’m like how do I order? Is it like McDonald’s, Chipotle, Red Robin?!? And then if it’s like McDonald’s or Chipotle, there’ll be pressure to decide as the line behind me grows! 

Yes, these are thoughts I actually have when trying a new restaurant. 

Getting back to the time trial. The plan was a 2-mile warm-up, followed by strides and drills and a short rest before the actual 2-mile time trial and then of course a 2 mile cool down. The warm-up, strides, and drills went as expected.

I really struggled to settle in the first mile of the time trial. I had talked to my coach and we had decided 10-10:30 minute mile would be a good aim for me. Well, I averaged 10:39 for that first mile, not because it was hard but because I couldn’t get a steady pace. I was pushing too hard then I’d pull back too much.  The second mile went much better and I got a steady flow going and ended up with a 10:02 mile. 

I felt like I had pushed but not too much. I had enough in the tank to do the 2 mile cool down. The hardest part was breathing. 

The time trial has set my times for easy runs and speed work. It’s pretty similar to what I was doing the past couple of years. Hopefully, with some consistency and a coach, I can improve. It’s been a bit of a rocky past couple of weeks for me. I’ve missed more runs due to weird things than in the past. 

I had weird ankle issues one day. I think it was from my time trial. There was a spot where I forgot the sidewalk was lifted and came down pretty hard. Then I forgot to change my alarm and woke up too late to run. Then I thought we were hiking on Sunday and Justin thought Monday. I gotta get my ish together or my coach is gonna drop me!

I’ve also been hitting the trails again, mostly for my long runs. There is nothing like being out on the trails, especially when no one else is around! It does make it harder to do the fast finish and other little speed things my coach throws in but I try and do what I can. Because let’s be real, my ultra is on these trails so I need to be prepared!

Speaking of my ultra, I am having second thoughts and feel I made a mistake in signing up for this particular one. I have run all the trails it covers, some of them multiple times. But there are a couple of sections that make my anxiety spike. One section is loose rocks. Not like small rocks but decent-sized rocks on an incline. Going up? No issues. Going down? My brain freaks out. The last time I had to go down, I stood at the top and stared for quite some time, trying to psych myself up. I also crab-walked down some of it. 

And the race goes up and down this section.

The other section is also downhill in this race. It’s very narrow and technical in parts. I can do it but I do it fairly slowly. There isn’t a lot of room to pass. It’s rock wall on one side and way down on the other. I wouldn’t want to hold others up as I slowly pick my way down.

Hopefully, I’ll be so far back it won’t be an issue. 

I do plan to get back out to these sections for practice when my long runs get a little longer.

And now… COFFEE CORNER!!

November wasn’t quite as slow book-wise as the last couple of months. I got a little of my reading mojo back. 

I finally finished Hannibal. I give it two stars. The first two books were definitely better. The author spent way too much time and detail building the story. I really didn’t need about half the info he included. And the ending? Enraged! It doesn’t seem like the right ending for this story. 

Then I picked The Endurance Diet back up to finish it. Three stars. I would recommend any other Matt Fitzgerald book before this one. It felt so much of just a way to say I met this athlete and this is what they ate. His other books are better.

I also got the Rise and Run cookbook and read through that. Five stars! I love these cookbooks and someday will actually make all the yummy-sounding recipes from them. 

Then I went on a fiction binge including Five Total Strangers (3 stars), The Bone Box (5 stars), and The Lost Soul of the City (4 stars). 

Five Total Strangers by Natalie D Richards was about five young adults that instead of being stranded at an airport during a blizzard decide to rent a car and drive together. Of course, one of the five has an ulterior motive. Concept was good. The author tried to throw you off from the real culprit but it was so obvious what they were doing that I guessed correctly. It was still a very fast read and well written. The Bone Box is a Waterman & Stark book from Gregg Olsen. It focuses on Dr. Waterman and her family. It’s a short story but very well done and not quite as graphic as his other books. The Lost Soul of the City is the first book in the Nameless season two from Dean Koontz. It’s decent but I thought the last season was better. I will still read the other short stories in season two. This one just felt different.

I have started The Ultra Mindset but Travis Macy and The Upside of Falling by Alex Light. So far I am enjoying both. I will include my thoughts in December’s podcast as I don’t think I will finish either of these before I record this. 

Ok, that is all I have for this week. Tell me, what is your A race for next year? When is it? How will you build your year around your big race? 

If you enjoyed this podcast, be sure to give it a follow. New episodes will air monthly on the last Monday of the month. I plan to keep this schedule for a while since I have so many other things going on. In the meantime, you can find me on Youtube, Twitter, and TikTok at runs on espresso and Instagram at runs_on_espresso.

If you like this podcast, I’d appreciate a rate and review wherever you listen. And be sure to share it with anyone you think might enjoy it. 

If you have a show idea, something you’d like to hear more about, drop me a message at anchor.fm/runsonespresso or email jenna@runsonespresso.com I look forward to hearing your ideas! 

Until next month, I hope your runs are as strong as your coffee!

Episode 24

Posted on October 25, 2021November 11, 2021 by Jenna

Hey everyone! Guess what y’all?! I’m finally a marathoner! On today’s episode, I will tell you how it went and what my next big adventure will be!

Where to start? So much I want to say about this large undertaking. First, I want to thank Justin for putting up with me and my 4 am wake-ups for the past few months. And my BRP (best running pal) Brittany for being my sounding board and allowing me to quit about 724 times. I could not have done this without either of them!

I’m also grateful to the running companies that got me through this. I put many miles on my shoes and hydration vests. And I ate a bunch of chews and gels. Nice to have a break from those now!

Let’s start on Saturday, the day before the planned marathon attempt. I woke up in a minor panic thinking it was Sunday and I had nothing ready! 

Thankfully it was only for like two seconds.

Saturday was a very east three miles. I took my dog and she goes on her own schedule. The rest of the day was getting all my gear charged and fuel ready. Once that was done, I relaxed. Well, relaxed for me!

So now for the actual race day!

I woke up earlier than planned so I took my time eating breakfast then got ready and headed out around 5 am. My goal had been to be out by 6 am at the latest. So a pretty good start!bAs it was dark out, I made sure I had my headlamp. Safety first!

I had most of my route figured out so I stuck to the plan. The only part I didn’t really plan was about the last 5k. I figured I could head home, and circle a few blocks as needed but wanted to make sure I’d be close to home when I finished.

The first half went by pretty quickly. I had my podcast going and I just allowed myself to settle into a conservative pace. I passed a few people out running or walking so I would pretend they were doing the same race I was. 

At about 12 miles, my crew showed up. And they are the best! Justin and Shadow met me at a wetland area to take my headlamp and swap out my Skratch bottles. I ended up walking with them for about a mile through the wetland. I was feeling strong at this point. I didn’t need to walk. It was a nice way to include my family and biggest supporters while I was running my marathon. 

It did feel a little lonely when we first split up but I turned my podcast back on and started to run again. I felt pretty good for miles 13 through 20. My hips started to tighten up around mile 20. I did stop a few times to stretch them. I also walked mile 23 and 25. I probably could have kept running them but my hips were tight and my feet were tired. It was nice to have a little break.

I was looking at my watch during mile 25 and going, “I need to run the last 1.2 miles to try to not roll into six hours”. I even thought I should start running now but there seemed to be a disconnect between my brain and legs. I kept walking.

As soon as I hit 26, I ran. I pushed as much as I could but I didn’t make it under six hours. BUT I finished. And that was the important part. It took me six hours and two minutes. I know I have more in me. I know I could do much better time-wise especially if it was a live, not virtual race. 

It’s hard to run 26.2 miles alone. Everyone always says the last 10k is run with the heart. That it’s the hardest part of a marathon. They aren’t wrong but for me, it was mentally hard, not physically hard. At mile 23 I kept thinking I should quit and just go home. But I had run 23 miles and there were only 3 to go so I needed to keep going. I had to pump myself up. I did have a music playlist ready but didn’t use it. I kept with the podcasts.

I ran slow and took walk breaks because I wanted to make sure I finished. I stopped to stretch a few times. But I know I have more to give. I was able to push myself for the last 1.2 miles. I was tired and my feet were tired but I wasn’t completely exhausted. 

I made sure to fuel with gels or chews every four miles. I did skip mile 24, I’m not sure if another gel would have made a difference at that point. Maybe it would have helped me run in mile 25, maybe not. I sipped water at mile one and every even mile after. Each odd mile I sipped Skratch. I think my fueling strategy has always worked well for me in half marathons and helped immensely for the full. 

Whew! That was a lot! Let’s take a quick ad break.

AD BREAK

So what’s next for me?

I decided to hire a coach. She had me take two weeks off after the marathon. The first week was fine. I was sore the first few days. The second week was harder. I was going a little stir crazy. What do non-marathon runners do with all this spare time?!?

The first day of official coaching is the day this podcast will be released. Maybe November’s podcast will talk about how my first month of coaching went!

My next big goal is a 50k in March 2022. Then I think I’ll attack an in-person marathon in February 2023 to see what I can do with a coach and a live race to push me. 

What are your running goals for 2022?

And now… COFFEE CORNER!!

For spooky szn I read Psycho by Robert Bloch. I give it five stars. I’ve seen the moves and recently watched Bates Motel so figured it was time to read the source material. Despite knowing the story and what was going to happen, Bloch created suspense that made me want to keep reading. 

Currently, I’m reading The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson. I once started watching the 1999 movie but do not recall actually finishing it. I haven’t watched the 1963 movie or the Netflix tv show yet so the book is all new to me. The book starts off a bit slow but it’s building the background of the characters and the house. So far I am really enjoying it and would recommend it. 

Lastly, I finally gave in and signed up for Hulu. I really wanted to hop on the bandwagon of Only Murders in the Building (we haven’t watched yet) and all the other shows I’ve missed out on over the years. Like the rest of The Mindy Project. 

I did start Superstore! I had wanted to watch it when it came out but forgot to set the DVR and then couldn’t find it anywhere but Hulu to catch up with so I never watched. I started it on my rest week and got through most of season two. It cracks me up! It is definitely not realistic but whatever. It’s hilarious. Plus all of the actors are so great!

I’ve started filling up my Hulu list. What should I add? Are there any hidden gems I can’t miss out on??

WRAP UP

And that’s all for this week. I’m a marathoner now. I feel so relieved to finally have all those did not starts behind me and know that I can do this! 

If you enjoyed this podcast, be sure to give it a follow. New episodes will air monthly on the last Monday of the month. I plan to keep this schedule for a while since I have so many other things going on. In the meantime, you can find me on Youtube, Twitter, and TikTok at runs on espresso and Instagram at runs_on_espresso.

If you like this podcast, I’d appreciate a rate and review wherever you listen. And be sure to share it with anyone you think might enjoy it. 

If you have a show idea, something you’d like to hear more about, drop me a message at anchor.fm/runsonespresso or email jenna@runsonespresso.com I look forward to hearing your ideas! 

Until next month, I hope your runs are as strong as your coffee!

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Jenna Volden is a paranormal horror author specializing in atmospheric ghost stories that blur the line between the supernatural and the psychological. Her work centers on mystery, reinvention, and unreliable narrators who may not be able to trust their own minds.

Jenna Volden

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Jenna Volden is a paranormal horror author specializing in atmospheric ghost stories that blur the line between the supernatural and the psychological. Her work centers on mystery, reinvention, and unreliable narrators who may not be able to trust their own minds.

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